The Wonder Drug

When I came into AA 22 plus years ago I was desperate and knew that my drinking life was over. I did not have a clue how I could cope with life on life’s terms without the aid of alcohol. I had given up cocaine some 1000 days earlier and thought I could continue to drink socially but alas as I have chronicled here that was a futile thought as I soon realized just as cocaine took over my every waking thought so did alcohol. A drug is a drug as I learned in those smoky church basements.  

Now after 3 failed marriages I have to take a look at another addiction and that is my addiction to love in the context of relationships. Although I do not feel desperate about it I do know that I have to “grow up” in terms of what I want in a relationship, what I will tolerate and what is expected of me. It is not enough that there be a tacit agreement about what the ground rules are. Too many times I have found that many things were just implied and not expressed.   I know that I will never ever take a hostage again nor be one myself.  

The tools of AA are applicable to just about any addiction, whether it be about eating, sex, love you name it the principles of AA can be just like aspirin: The wonder drug.